Zen Mum’s Yoga Journey



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I was anesthetized from reality and locked inside a self-created mental hell.

As I found yoga and meditation, I became aware of the mental seeds I was sowing for myself. As this awareness grew my depression, anxiety and chronic stress became a very faint memory.

Yoga and meditation provided a way for me to connect and nourish my mind, body and soul.

Life is never straight and predictable and on the 3rd of September 2018, I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. The entire  pregnancy was a physical and mental struggle. As if exhaustion and endurance were competing like competitive school children within my body.

At week 5 I was diagnosed with severe morning sickness or what’s known as “hyperemesis gravidarum” (which means “excessive vomiting during pregnancy”). This includes several hospital visits for dehydration and the only way to stop the vomiting is to take medication. Although the medication was only stopping the vomiting, I was always nauseas.

I thought I was finally finding a rhythm between having a toddler, serve morning sickness and a being a university student when my waters broke at 23 weeks. I was to be hospitalized and on strict bedrest until my son was delivered.

My son was born and died on the 3rd of September 2018. Jasper was healthy had a great body weight for a premature baby at 26 weeks however he had a condition that we were unaware off. My son was unable to be saved.

As Jaspers mother, I felt like it was me and my body that failed him. I thought I had been through the toughest part of my life already, but I was wrong.

Reconnecting with yoga was not easy. It felt so disconnected to my body, mind and soul. The BEST thing about yoga is that it has so many levels. So, I just started very slowly with very light stretches and quick meditation. Every time I started to give up on my workout session or meditation. Slowly day by day I would build on this. Some days I would give up and others I wouldn’t even start, but I never quit.

Once again yoga and meditation helped me to reconnect with healing, health and self-love during times of great darkness in my life.

I now have permanent access to a paradise within my own mind, body and soul.



Zen Mum’s Inspiration – Martial arts (Taekwondo) Belt;

ZenMum: I’m always asked how I stay energized and motivated. I’ll keep it simple – Its Martial Arts!

My parents, both had black belts in Karate and were instructors before I was born, so they insisted I try Karate while young, but I never held enough patience so i stopped participated in martial arts until the age of fourteen years. I watched my brother and father train twice a week in Taekwondo for a year, before deciding to join and give it a try myself. Then that was it, I was hooked! It wasn’t just the physical and spiritual elements of marital, but the community itself had a large part why I was hooked.

The martial arts community, (it’s worth acknowledging; it does not matter what type of martial arts you are involved in, or what background you have the community is welcoming.) is strongly based on Humility, Determination, Respect and Reciprocity. The belt system very much represents these core values. Belts represent the skills and time a person has achieved through consistent participation. When someone has trained for long enough and has the acquired skills for that belt level one must pass a test (grading) to then be reward the next belt and congratulated formally. This creates a kind of structure within the community; Lower belts must always respect higher belts; higher belts have more authority. It is a community that has always remained balanced, in my experience. The community work together at eliminating ‘bullies’ who misuse skills and power, this is easy in an environment of shared morals centralising on; Humility, Determination, Respect and Reciprocity . The community spirt inside a martial arts community push past barriers of; race, gender and age.


The ‘Belts’ of martial arts have been with my family for so long, it has occurred to us that the process of ‘grading’ is a lot like, what was needed throughout life like; meeting educational and career goals, weight loss, muscle gain, finances etc This keeps you calm, determined and highly motivated.

My experience with Martial arts has been profoundly beneficial in making me into the motivated, hardworking, respectful, healthy and honest person I am today. I thank my parents for introducing to me such an insightful and skilled community, and I will pass it down to my children happily.

I’d highly recommended any martial arts, but especially the ones with ‘Belt’ systems, they are more heavily based on humility, determination, respect and reciprocity to anyone interested in Martial arts.


Thank you for reading!

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